Baby Update

We've reached a decision on the babies. We aren't going to do it. Actually, it ended up not even being the bipolar thing (which was a definite concern, but one we might have tried to deal with). After two days with off-the-wall kids at school (4, 5, 6 year olds), I am exhausted. Peanut has thankfully been having a bunch of "good" days where is follows directions most of the time and isn't hitting/kicking a lot. The thought that kept running through my head was "three kids under three." All I could think of was, if I had to go home to infant twins and a wonderfully, energetic two year old...I'd be in a mental ward by the end of the week.

Now, don't get me wrong, if I had twins I would deal with the craziness. However, I have been given a choice, so I'm going to use it. But after having talked with my friend who is a psychologist (and also married into a family with people who were bipolar), I feel comfortable with my decision. These babies deserve (as all babies do) to have someone that will be able to give them everything they need. If I'm burnt out from school and wrestling a toddler, there is a good chance that the babies will end up missing out on support they may need (especially if they are bipolar). Peanut would also be lose out on a LOT of attention...a lot more than if it were just one baby. So, at this time, this is the best decision for us. And for once, I feel confident I am doing the right thing.